Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Lunch Break


oh my i cannot believe over 2 months have passed and i really haven't updated, posted a picture, nothin. 

ironically, though the blog is about 'what's next', i have been working this past month on letting go of the future. no more pondering, daydreaming, visioning of what's next. no plotting, planning, or to-listing of what i will do next. no checking flights and airfare prices, no contacting schools and networking to people in places i am thinking of going next. 

no next, just now.

now is on maui. now is working on the goat farm 5 days a week. now is multi-tasking 10 hours a day worth of cheesemaking and goat related tasks. now is going on a run, swimming in the ocean at sundown, doing pushups on my lunch break. now is breathing and doing affirmations. now is finding a way to be comfortable and grounded in the present moment. 

now it's time to get back to work! 

(more thoughts to come as i recommit to the blog experience...)

4 comments:

"the nomads" said...

You Rock! I can't wait to see you again... I just wish it was NOW!!!
-matt

bikesbeetsbread said...

hey jenstar! this is chelsea (i emailed you randomly, will be going to hale akua in a week....cool) and just wanted to let you know we started a blog!

http://whatsnextjenstar.blogspot.com/

bikesbeetsbread said...

oops, that's your blog.

here's ours

http://bikesbeetsbread.blogspot.com/

Diesel Says said...

hey, i found yr blog by searching for internships at surfing goat. can you tell me a little bit about yr experience there, what it was like, etc. and also, perhaps, how queer/trans friendly they might be?

thanks, reid
jaksemas at gmail dot com